I'd give anything to get some sleep but everytime I close my eyes I relive that night when I had to leave Carol's; not to mention all the other chaos in my life. Now that Jas found me and the craziness has calmed down a bit I'm overwhelmed by my thoughts.
I never thought that flying to NYC to take care of a sick friend would've changed my life this way. It seems like that place took away everyone that is important to me...Robbie; my girl, Lascano; my boyfriend and Hal. He was a good friend before all of this; that infection turned him. I am determined to find and reveal the origin of that infection. I lost my friend way before the dreaded newspaper headline. The man they spoke of in the paper on May 13th had not been Hal in quite a while. I know this sounds ridiculous but I miss Hal.
Sorry, I am all emotional & rambling on but I figured if I got all of this out it would help like some kind of therapy or something and maybe then I could get some sleep.
I better log off, the screen on this laptop is also too bright. I thought it was just the other one I was using before but I guess not. I wish I had the sandman's number so he could drop by and keep me company tonight. A cup of tea and an extra pillow will have to do for tonight.
Good night. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a new beginning.
