I'd give anything to get some sleep but everytime I close my eyes I relive that night when I had to leave Carol's; not to mention all the other chaos in my life. Now that Jas found me and the craziness has calmed down a bit I'm overwhelmed by my thoughts.

I never thought that flying to NYC to take care of a sick friend would've changed my life this way. It seems like that place took away everyone that is important to me...Robbie; my girl, Lascano; my boyfriend and Hal. He was a good friend before all of this; that infection turned him. I am determined to find and reveal the origin of that infection. I lost my friend way before the dreaded newspaper headline. The man they spoke of in the paper on May 13th had not been Hal in quite a while. I know this sounds ridiculous but I miss Hal.

Sorry, I am all emotional & rambling on but I figured if I got all of this out it would help like some kind of therapy or something and maybe then I could get some sleep.

I better log off, the screen on this laptop is also too bright. I thought it was just the other one I was using before but I guess not. I wish I had the sandman's number so he could drop by and keep me company tonight. A cup of tea and an extra pillow will have to do for tonight.

Good night. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a new beginning.


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I know it's been a while but I've been going through lots. It turns out that Carol's friend at the lab could not identify what made me sick but he did make a very interesting discovery in my blood...a genetic anomaly that makes me immune to whatever Hal tried to pass on to me. That is why I developed that crazy fever & my symptoms stopped, unlike Hal's.

Carol was worried when she noticed my writing was deteriorating, at times. I noticed the same in Hal's writing. She was afraid whatever I had was affecting my brain but it turned out it was my fever. Thankfully,once the fever stopped so did most of my symptoms but my skin pigmentation is still different due to dehydration of my skin & I still had a few lesions I developed on my body but those have almost completely healed after undergoing hyperbaric oxygen therapy at NewYork-Presbyterian Allen Hospital. I wonder if I'll ever be completely normal again.

I'm still trying to find answers; it should be easier now that I've sort of got my health back. Hal is out there somewhere. Actually, sometimes I get the feeling that...Hal is watching.

Jas, sweetness, I really need to meet with you.



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Carol sent some of my blood to some lab. I begged her not to; I don't think we should trust anyone but she says she will do whatever it takes to help me. Not sure if that will help in anyway. I have so many symptoms I can't even list them.

Those of you who know me wouldn't recognize me if you saw me. I don't even recognize myself anymore! The pain has become unbearable. I am grateful for Carol's efforts but I have made peace with what may come 500N.

Sakura Okamoto


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I am in your midst.



It's Sakura again.

Sorry I haven't been around; this infection has made me very weak. Poor Carol has been searching for Thad to no avail and helping me be as comfortable as possible until well...you know. Everyday I feel worse and worse but knowing that my best friend has not given up on me keeps me going. I am trying not to let this make me bitter by holding on to my sense of humor. Also, Carol & I continue searching, via the web, for any information. Anything at all.

I've tried to get ahold of that bastard, Hal, but he's gone completely off radar except for his blog and one email he sent me 2 nights ago. Of course the email is proof that not only has he gone off radar but off his rocker. The subject line said ZOOM! BOOM!; he included an attachment & he typed "See you on the flipside...500N, Sakura". Below is the attachment, a pic he took of me when I first came to take care of him...

I remember this was a few days after I found him. We were staying together and I'd always have an iced coffee in the afternoon but on this day he asked me to have this instead. I'm not sure what he is tryin to say, that is, if he is tryin to say anything at all. It could just be the ramblings of a dead man.

I better go. I'm not feeling so hot.



It's me...Sakura. A few days ago I got a call from Carol; she was hoping I knew where Thad is.
I wasn't much help. I don't know if that's good or bad but hearing from her has been good for me. You've probably figured out by now that I never met up with Hal @ The Jane.
I decided to go to Carol's since she took care of Hal in the beginning. Now she's taking care of me.

So here I am on Thad's laptop; trying to find something...anything... significant in his files. I think I'd be able to get more done if I wasn't in so much pain. I can't continue to be in denial and hide this any longer.

Hal's old & sick, so he forgets words, trails his sentences off into...

-Sakura Okamoto



Dios mio ayúdame! Mi hijo ha desaparecido!!!

Estoy extremamente preocupada; el esta muy enfermo.

Si alguien lo ha visto o sabe donde lo puedo encontrar por favor dejeme saber.
El es mi todo; no lo puedo perder.


My City Was Gone

The "Black Mailbox", painted WHITE!


Chill Dog

Just chillin', waitin', watchin'

Have you tried this?



I was able to decode one of Hal's files this a.m.!
Found in the remnants of my mom's failed back-up.



Corrosion CH-02 Rev. 0 Page vi

1.9 LIST the three products that are formed from the general corrosion of iron.
1.10 IDENTIFY the action taken for initial fill of a reactor system to limit general corrosion.
1.11 STATE the four methods used to chemically control general plant corrosion.
1.12 LIST the six water chemistry conditions that limit corrosion of aluminum.
1.13 DEFINE the following terms: a. Crud b. Scale c. Galvanic corrosion
1.14 IDENTIFY the five problems associated with the presence or release of crud into reactor coolant.
1.15 STATE the four causes of crud bursts.
1.16 STATE the two conditions that can cause galvanic corrosion.
1.17 EXPLAIN the mechanism for galvanic corrosion.
1.18 IDENTIFY the two locations that are susceptible to galvanic corrosion.
1.19 STATE the five control measures used to minimize galvanic corrosion.
1.20 DEFINE the following terms: a. Pitting corrosion b. Crevice corrosion c. Stress corrosion cracking
1.21 STATE the two conditions necessary for pitting corrosion to occur.
1.22 STATE the particular hazard associated with pitting corrosion.
1.23 STATE the four controls used to minimize pitting corrosion.

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Polymerase Chain Reaction

Well it’s amazing what heating and cooling
and heating will do.

PCR, when you need to detect mutations.
PCR, when you need to recombine.
PCR, when you need to find out who the daddy is.
PCR, when you need to solve a crime.



TOP SECRET U.S. Government Project Revealed!



We're looking out at THE OCEAN. It's peaceful. Serene. We
hear the ROLLING WAVES. The distant sound of people
laughing. We seem to be looking out from a HIGH VANTAGE
POINT. And we're moving upward --

ROB (O.S.)
I'm really gonna miss this.

They have ferris wheels in Japan,

ROB (O.S.)
That's not what I'm talking about --

Rob swings the camera around, angling it back towards
himself. And we reveal --

Rob and Beth are at Coney Island. Riding side-by-side on THE
FERRIS WHEEL. And, once again, we're looking at what used to
be on this tape.

Rob holds the camera out at arms length so they're both in
frame. As he leans in towards her --



A "Message" From Hal ...

Hal sent this video through my email this a.m.

I don't have any idea what it means or how to respond.

Anyone care to clue me in?


What ARE Those things?!

It will not be easy for Hal and his cronies to find where me and my mom have fled.

The work they have done is frightful, and I am grieved to the fact it may be spreading.

As for the malicious crap I have received in my email, I do not appreciate the insistence of some of you that I am the "crazy" one here.

We shall see. We shall see ...


Sometimes it seems like WE ARE ALL GOING TO DIE!

New York, two years ago, was a NIGHTMARE!

My birthday was ruined by the event, and the city has NOT recovered as well as we have been told.

Most of what has been happening since, is hallucination!

I'm only fourteen years old, but even I know what a cover-up feels like.
And the information I have discovered has proved it!

I don't know how to get the truth out there.
So many people believe the lies!
(I know I once did)

BEWARE of Hal and anyone he's associated with.

He lies when he says he knows the truth.


Trust No One!

My mother is smart.

She listened to me.

Upon my disappearance, she backed up all the data on the LapTop, then deleted the original source.

It's in your hands now.

I am still here.