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I'd give anything to get some sleep but everytime I close my eyes I relive that night when I had to leave Carol's; not to mention all the other chaos in my life. Now that Jas found me and the craziness has calmed down a bit I'm overwhelmed by my thoughts.

I never thought that flying to NYC to take care of a sick friend would've changed my life this way. It seems like that place took away everyone that is important to me...Robbie; my girl, Lascano; my boyfriend and Hal. He was a good friend before all of this; that infection turned him. I am determined to find and reveal the origin of that infection. I lost my friend way before the dreaded newspaper headline. The man they spoke of in the paper on May 13th had not been Hal in quite a while. I know this sounds ridiculous but I miss Hal.

Sorry, I am all emotional & rambling on but I figured if I got all of this out it would help like some kind of therapy or something and maybe then I could get some sleep.

I better log off, the screen on this laptop is also too bright. I thought it was just the other one I was using before but I guess not. I wish I had the sandman's number so he could drop by and keep me company tonight. A cup of tea and an extra pillow will have to do for tonight.

Good night. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a new beginning.

2 comments:

  1. Saki,

    You don't need to worry anymore. As long as I am around, your safe. Hals death wasn't your fault, so please don't blame yourself for that ok. My worry is that whoever is still out there picking up the pieces, is going to come looking for you. My life has changed since I made the commitment to look out for you. I am not used to always looking over my shoulder all of the time. My life became much more complicated, but it was a choice I had to make but a well worth one. I learned a lot about who I am and my destiny. It almost feels like we were destined to be in each others life. Crazy how the Universe works huh? Sorry for the tangent LOL.
    So why the nightmares about Carol? Did something happen while she was taking care of you? You have been really quiet lately. It's like you want to tell me something. Well you know you can talk to me. Anyways, I have to run. Please try to get some rest ok. Ill see you 500N

    Jas

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  2. hmm... seems to me like an eleven year old emo girl. I hate it when white people pretend they're asian.

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